Anticipation...

Wow, it's been a very long time. Very appropriate that my first post in 2 years is about anticipation.

Lately I have been experience a lot of anticipation...lots of discussion about anticipation and going through the emotion of anticipation. Webster's defines anticipation as "the act of looking forward; especially : pleasurable expectation" or "visualization of a future event or state"...in my situation either or both of those apply. Pleasurable expectation. I like that. Yes, I have have been in a "pleasurable expectation" state quite a bit in the last few weeks. And more to come...apparently, tax season means I have to visualize that future event or state that will bring me to a "pleasurable expectation". Heh. I even like saying that. Pleasurable. Expectation.

So while I wait, I am using this anticipatory period as a catalyst. A catalyst to induce change in myself. I am working out more. I am eating better. I am tracking what I am doing. I am getting healthy. Because I want that pleasurable expectation to live up to all the expectations I have...all that I am anticipating...and damn, it feels good to be here right now!